Support shoplifting from corporations!

Right now I need to reach a point of mental stability after what's been happening recently.

I need to reach a point in which I'm fine with the idea that she may never be available to me again. I guess I have myself to blame, however, due to my own actions. I could've had her safely and securely in my grasp, but due to my own arrogance and foolishness, I have not only placed myself in a situation I despise, I must learn to cope with it as it is the only option besides not getting out of bed in the morning.

I want.

What does it matter what I want? Maybe I should focus on what she wants. I'm not even sure what she wants, but I'm sure she'll act in accordance to what she does want, even if I don't know what it is.

I want her to do what she wants.

That's what I want.